Wednesday 13 June 2012

It Finally Happened . . .


I had nearly given up.

It felt like I was being thwarted at every attempt I made,

One step forward . . . three steps back.

But I didn't give up.

I kept up the dream,

the hope,

and the work.

And it finally happened  . . .

MY GARDEN IS PLANTED!

WooHoo!

feel free to join me in performing the happy dance

Oh, she is such a beauty!


Here are the seedlings I bought at Kredl's the other night.  (I must add, I do feel a slight twinge of guilt over the fact I did not grow my own seedlings this year AND that I did not incorporate it into our homeschool lessons.  Ugh!) I have corn, sugar snap peas, brussel sprouts, green peppers, cucumbers, and romaine lettuce in there!


And here is my baby . . . my potato patch.  You do not understand how giddy I am over the fact that I am growing potatoes.  It makes no sense, but ask Mr. Level-Headed, and he can attest to how ridiculously in love I am with the idea of growing my very own lil' spuds.  I know . . . crazy!!


I also planted some zucchini and pole beans from seed so we'll just have to wait and see if they are a go.

I am in complete and utter shock that it is finally planted.  I keep checking on it and basking in a job well done.  I can't believe I almost didn't put one in this year!

It was with great sadness on Sunday evening that I told myself to give up on the garden.  I had it in my head it was too late to plant one and too unrealistic to think that I could find the time to put it in.  So I chalked it up to one of my many failings this year and decided to try again next year.  It really saddened me because I remembered how much I loved my garden last year, how excited I was at each harvest, how proud I was when my family enjoyed a meal from the all of our hard work, and how satisfied I felt after a long day of playing in the dirt.

I am still a kid at heart!


Then, like all the other times when I feel overcome by defeat, my inner Tiger Mama kicks in and roars . . .

Girl, quit your whining, pick up some plants, and get to work . . . NOW!

And I always listen to her because, frankly, she terrifies me.

She shuts up my inner perfectionist and my inner nervous Nelly and pushes me to become the woman I want to be . . .

Yes, you've guessed it, this is no longer just about my tiny little garden.

This year has been filled with disappointments and challenges, and I have come very close to throwing in the towel, saying goodbye to my hopes of becoming a mama again, and closing the door on our homeschooling adventures.

But I didn't, and I won't.

Instead, I am going to take my three-steps-back in stride and make sure that my one-step-forward is a giant leap, and then, by the grace of God, I might just make it.

And, oh, how sweet it will be.













5 comments:

  1. I completely understand the joy of a garden planted! :) And it sounds like your "Tiger Mama" might be less tiger, and more the voice of the Spirit speaking inside you. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4 It sounds like you have found your perseverance, praying that you will know the sweet joy of all that your faith will bring!

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    1. Yes, you are right, Andrea. It is totally the Spirit, but most people say when the Spirit speaks it is like a still, small voice. For me, the voice seems to speak in ferocious exasperation . . . Tee hee! Probably because I do far too much talking and not enough listening. Thanks for your support, my friend. Here's to perseverance! :)

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    2. Yes, you are right, Andrea. It is totally the Spirit, but most people say when the Spirit speaks it is like a still, small voice. For me, the voice seems to speak in ferocious exasperation . . . Tee hee! Probably because I do far too much talking and not enough listening. Thanks for your support, my friend. Here's to perseverance! :)

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  2. You Go Girl! Glad to see you haven't given up on "The Vision", or your Dream of being a mama again. You are such an inspiration to me, and I look up to you even more when I see you pushing trough your disappointments and challenges.

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    1. Aww, Jacquie! Thanks. You are such a sweetie! :)

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